It’s been long since I last wrote here, maybe lack of ideas or maybe I’ve been busy with my new broadband connection. Just can’t get enough with downloading animes, songs and video clips.
Emotion. What is an emotion? Some people say emotion is feelings, its something in your heart, follow your heart are always the way or truthfulness. Those who aren’t are just mere hypocrites. And some other people say that emotion is just a chemical reaction in side your body, it is not real and will weaken you. Those who are been too emotional are weaklings. What a contrary approach toward emotion huh? For me, emotion is an important factor that drives you to whatever you going to do. It measure up your determination and efforts
What about me? Somebody told me that I am emotionless kind of people. Not sensitive to other’s feeling. And yet another person told me that I am too sensitive. Take some matters too deeply. Well, I can’t disagree with both of them, can I? And that’s why sometimes I think nobody could understand me.
In my perspective, I am not that too sensitive neither emotionless type of people. It depends on the situation actually. Sometimes I think I can even choose what kind of emotion I should feel. Then, sincerity becomes an issue. Am I been hypocrite?
Well, I always put it like this; before give any emotionally reaction, I will put that person in my place and imagine what are their reaction. Then I will choose to react more positive than him/her. Example? Okay, the situation is like this; somebody is angry at me and relishes their anger towards me. What should I react? Firstly, I will put that person at my place, and imagine what their reaction toward that. I can see that person will yelling back and speak some harsh words. And the situation will get worse. So I choose not to do the same thing, beside, I will play deaf and wont take any of that person’s word in my mind. So the situation won’t get worse and I think it is better solution to prevent any unpleasant circumstances and to protect my emotion/feelings/pride. What a complicated mind of me.
What I hope that someday, somewhere there a someone who will really understand me. But life now is not so bad. Still have faith in whatever I do and accept whatever had happen. So guys, have faith. Wassalam.